Frankie Bridge became 'convinced' she had killed her child amid first-time mum anxiety

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Frankie Bridge has revealed some of the anxieties she suffered as a first-time mother. (David M. Benett/Getty Images)
Frankie Bridge has revealed some of the anxieties she suffered as a first-time mother. (David M. Benett/Getty Images)

Frankie Bridge has admitted she thought she had killed her child amid her anxiety around being a first-time mum.

The singer and TV personality made the admission in her new book Grow: Motherhood, Mental Health & Me, Frankie, reported via The Mirror.

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Bridge explains in the book how she became terrified after taking her son Parker — who is now seven years old — for a chickenpox vaccination, only to later be told she should have waited until after he turned one.

She said: "The guilt and fear I had felt throughout the day spiralled. And it resulted in a complete meltdown.

“My paranoia kicked into overdrive too and I became convinced I had killed my child, before he’d even really got the chance to live.”

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Ultimately, Bridge's decision simply rendered the vaccine useless rather than harmful.

She added: "This type of crisis moment is something I had dealt with throughout my life, but I had never been responsible for someone else, and this compounded my paranoia and exacerbated my fears."

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In the book, Bridge also reveals that her pride at being pregnant was mixed with "the immense weight of underlying shame".

The 32-year-old wrote: "I was so ashamed and if I’m honest, shocked that I wasn’t a gorgeous, glowing, neat and tidy pregnant woman.

“My bum was bigger than my bump most of the time.” 

Frankie is married to former England footballer Wayne Bridge. (Jeff Spicer/Getty Images)
Frankie is married to former England footballer Wayne Bridge. (Jeff Spicer/Getty Images)

A former member of girl group The Saturdays, Frankie has been married to former England and Chelsea footballer Wayne Bridge since 2014.

They now have two children together, with Parker now joined by six-year-old Carter.

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Bridge began her music career as a member of S Club Juniors before joining The Saturdays and has been working on solo material since the group went on hiatus in 2014.

In 2020, she joined the roster of guests on Loose Women and has become a regular panellist this year.

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