Michelle Heaton shares letter written by partner while in rehab: 'I have been left embarrassed by you'

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Watch: Michelle Heaton discusses rehab stint on Loose Women

Michelle Heaton has opened up about her struggles with alcohol addiction during an appearance on ITV's Loose Women.

She announced to the panel of hosts that she has now been sober for 13 months and also read out a letter written by her husband while she was in rehab.

Heaton started by openly speaking out her addictions and she then read the letter in full.

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Part of the letter said: "Watching you spiral like this has been very hard to deal with. I couldn’t talk to my best friend. I have been left embarrassed by you, but that was never you."

Michelle Heaton on Loose Women (ITV)
Michelle Heaton on Loose Women. (ITV)

The letter also detailed how Heaton's addictions affected her marriage and children: "I have also tried to help the kids forget your behaviour. It has turned you into a liar. Your addictive behaviour has hurt me a lot 'Chelle, and you’ve become someone who’s very untrustworthy. Your behaviour has robbed me of my wife and the kids of their mummy."

Heaton also spoke about what it was like during the depths of her addiction: "Drinking was so exhausting. It occupied every waking moment.

Michelle Heaton shared a look at her swollen face before she checked into rehab (Instagram)
Michelle Heaton shared a look at her swollen face before she checked into rehab (Instagram)

"I’ve got a really happy sense of being now - and I just didn’t. I had no regards to what was happening to my family. It’s shameful to say that sometimes they were in my way."

She added that she now feels guilty over how she treated her family: "When the kids really needed a cuddle, I just wasn’t there for them. It wasn’t until I got sober, clean, that I could recognise how I was behaving. Then the guilt comes in."

Kevin Simms, Jessica Taylor, Michelle Heaton, Kelli Young and Tony Lundon of Liberty X pose backstage at G-A-Y on February 1, 2014. (Redferns via Getty Images)
Kevin Simms, Jessica Taylor, Michelle Heaton, Kelli Young and Tony Lundon of Liberty X pose backstage at G-A-Y in 2014. (Redferns via Getty Images)

Heaton also spoke of how her children handled her addiction and rehab: "Kids are very forgiving, they didn’t acknowledge how much I was in pain, however, they were navigating my reactions."

The former Liberty X singer revealed that she didn't go a day without alcohol for three years but has now been sober for 13 months.

Watch below: Michelle Heaton talks about her first sober Christmas

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