Ryan Adams Says He Was So High on Painkillers That He Doesn't Remember Marrying Mandy Moore

Joelle Goldstein

Ryan Adams claims he knew his marriage to Mandy Moore would fail from the start — even though he doesn’t remember saying “I do.”

On Wednesday, Adams, 43, went on a rambling Twitter spree about the couple’s early beginnings, after the This Is Us actress opened up about her divorce from the rocker in the November issue of Glamour.

“She didn’t like the Melvins or BladeRunner,” he wrote on Twitter, referencing Moore’s comment that she “didn’t choose the right person” when deciding to tie the knot in 2009.

“Doomed from the start…” he continued the message. “If only I could remember the start lol.”

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Adams then revealed to his followers, in a since-deleted tweet, that he allegedly was using drugs so heavily he did not remember their 2009 wedding.

“When someone told me we got married I thought they were joking,” he said. “Then I realized how many painkillers I was taking. Honestly there weren’t enough to numb the shock. Gollygooops”

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To make matters worse, Adams went on to compare his marriage to Moore, 34, to being “stuck to the spiritual equivalent of a soggy piece of cardboard.”

“But it rains on net-a-porter everyday when you’re trapped inside yourself,” he continued. “Take the money I’ll take my pride, any day.”

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Fans were quick to come to Moore’s defense, attacking Adams for his response to his ex-wife’s comments. When one Twitter user accused the musician of writing “75% of your love songs” about her, Adams immediately set the record straight.

“There’s not actually a single song about her. Like not one. Fact,” Adams wrote.

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Just a day earlier, Adams responded to a tweet from Dawes — which ironically features Taylor Goldsmith, AKA Moore’s new fiancé, as the frontman of the group.

But even as Moore prepares to start a life with her new man, Adams had nothing but respect for Goldsmith, encouraging his fans to listen to the band’s new single.

“This is a great record in a time where people need them,” he wrote on Twitter. “May every great song find their rightful listener… Any fan of mine will love this. With respect. XO”

Late Wednesday after fans expressed concern for the musician and his mental wellbeing he apologized for his comments and assured them he was alright.

“Thank you for the kind messages. I am speaking with a grief/ crisis counselor. I apologize if I caused anyone any worry. Depression, anxiety/ panic attacks & grief are very real and serious issues. If anyone is suffering I urge you to seek help. And cats,” the musician, who has been open about his struggles with mental health, wrote.

“I apologize for my remarks. I was trying to be funny. But I have and will always choose to remember the amazing moments. It isn’t classy or ok lessen what was. I am happy for everyone and doing my best.”

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After six years of marriage, Moore and Adams announced their separation in January 2015. A little over a year later, the pair finalized their divorce in June 2016.

Moore has previously opened up about her past with her ex-husband, often finding the good in a painful situation.

“My story deviated in a different direction than I expected,” she told PEOPLE of her split. “But ultimately, life is about being happy and fulfilled and sometimes that means making hard choices.”

“You couldn’t pay me to go back five or 10 years ago,” she continued. “Having gone through trials and tribulations has brought me to this place today. I feel so much lighter. And I’m growing into the best version of myself.”

In August 2016, while attending a This Is Us panel at the Television Critics Association tour, Moore told the audience that she was doing “fantastic” amid a “tough” split from Adams.

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“It’s tough. Life is not easy,” she said. “I think it’s been great to be able to take all of the chapters in my life and be able to pour it into a job like this because it all helps. It’s all fuel.”

“I think everything happens for a reason. I think I spent a good portion of the last years of my life really pouring all of my energy into my life and relationship, and now that that’s sort of not part of my life anymore,” she explained, adding “It’s just not a coincidence to me that things sort of opened back up, and I’m able to focus back on myself again.”

Most recently, in Glamour‘s cover story, the actress admitted that she felt “spiritually and fundamentally stuck” before their split.

“I don’t feel guilty for [the divorce]. I don’t fault myself for it,” she explained. “When people said, ‘I’m sorry,’ I was like, ‘No. Sorry would have been had I stayed in a very unhealthy situation.’ I didn’t. I found my way out. And when I did, things opened back up again.”